The picture posted is from our first vacation ever! It was wonderful..but as usual I worried about if I was good enough, pretty enough for him. I don't think that ever was a concern for him. just something I worried about with everyone I ever dated. But he was...IS wonderful.There's no other explanantion for it. I guess thats' why I am so frustrated that he even had to have this stroke:( And now the movement disorder:( which is making him not eat..get depressed and self conscious..not wanting to go in public... WHY in the world would this happen to this strong...GOOD man? We went to a neuro optometrist today bc he cannot read things due to his vision and they said they cant try glasses rt now bc his head is shaking so much. GRR! I just wanted to run really fast(not away just you know for the stress release) I am so frustrated bc it isn't like this man (my husband) lived an unhealthy life...he ate salads with almost every meal..was always helping others..always following through on promises...the kindest person I know and he has had rto struggle over and over again..I cried(underneath my sunglasses...) on the way home bc..SERIOUSLY..how much does he have to suffer? I want him to have a good life and not stress and there's so much out of my hands I want to scream WHY?WHY HIM? Then the humble christian woman in me is setting here now thinks..this too shall pass ...and God heals those who have faith in him..I will remain strong in my faith and let it shine onto him.One day tehre will be seasons of blessings because we are steadfast and believe in healing hands of GOD.He has always came through for everything else. Patience is not my strong suit.. Have a good day everyone.