This is a disorder many soldiers suffer with and have for many years. In earlier wars it was called Shell Shock then to my knowledge from the Vietnam war to Iraq and Afghanistan it was known as PTSD. In fact the military didn't have the name PTSD when I left Vietnam in 1970-71. So it was very hard for me to get a reason I acted like I did and no one knew why. By 1982 it was known as PTSD and I submitted my claim for disability after I was confirmed as having it.

It was not until 2010 when I was diagnosed and started to receive medical disability. My wife was appointed to handle all my finance matters. The finances comes in her name with me as the beneficiary and I cannot even write a check on that account. I been married four times but since I left Vietnam I got married three more times! Each wife saw my condition and couldn't deal with it neither did the Army.

I couldn't get promoted anymore with ten years in grade and 22 years of service as a SFC E7 and a BA degree while working in military Personnel in Germany. Now I am happily married to wife #4, the best of the bunch and I wouldn't get rid of her for all the gold at Fort Knox! The marriages was the major factor the disability board concluded I suffered with PTSD and I would not recover!

Now this Sunday I must meet with my Pastor about my condition after our regular services. I now need help in coping with life as I know it to be when you have a wonderful wife by your side! Well my PTSD has gotten worse lately and my mind and thinking is NOT right. I am not a copy cat as many soldiers disable or not are giving up on life here at Fort Hood as they return from war in Afghanistan. I know the feeling all too well!

During my appointment yesterday I got a copy of the CD from x-ray showing the bullet in my left side that's causing me pain and not being able to lay on my left side to see if it can now be removed and if it has moved to another location causing this pain to be unbearable this many years later on my paralyzed side since the stroke!

So to my Stroke Support Gang...."I got to take a break and promise you all I shall return later"!!!! Something is not right?