Last Thursday I had a dramatic incident. I came down the back of my house block carrying one of the planters and stood on the upturned prongs of an old fashioned metal rake. It went into my foot through my shoe. I sat down and cried with the pain, yelled “help” to see if anyone would come and then decided I had to do something about it. I weighed down the rake with bricks and slowly pulled my foot off it. Ouchy! That was painful.

I rang my daughter-in-law and she advised bathing it in salty water for half an hour or so, then going to the doctor the next day for a tetanus needle and antibiotics. Good idea. So I did that. He said not to drive for few days and he was right, not good if you can’t put pressure on your right foot. So I was housebound for several days. Only felt as if I was safe driving today, one week later.

Of course bad things never come singly do they? If my answers to blog have seemed strange it is because I have had computer problems. One stuck key. It is strange to try to write sentences without an “A” in it, really strange. I tried writing only words that do not have it in and then worked out that I could use the spellchecker to give me the words I needed. I went to computer outlet today and the only solution was to buy another keyboard and use that attached to the laptop, awkward but doable. It was one solution I suppose but not the one I wanted.

So here I am trying to put my life in perspective. Things good and bad about this period of my life. Good things include having three of my grandchildren here, Tori only one day, the boys three days. Lots of noise and laughter and interesting things to do so no sad and lonely thoughts for Grandma. Yes, Grandma does talk to strange men in the park as long as they are with their grandchildren...lol. I loved playing computer games with them and having those funny little conversations you can have with 7 and 8 year olds. They just love to share their little bit of knowledge with you.

It is good to put everything else on hold for while so they can have your undivided attention, childhood passes too fast to allow yourself to miss sharing it with your grandchildren. I did too much of that when Ray was alive, when he had to be the focus of my life, so now I can catch up bit. Pity is they live so far away now. They still refer to Pa but not as often now, sad that he will gradually fade from their memories now.

I have finally replaced my broken watch, I was hoping to get one for Christmas but that never happened so I went out today and bought a cheap one. It will do for while. I thought there was no sense in buying something expensive...but then who else is going to do that now? No-one here to pamper me is there? After years of looking to someone else for presents etc it is so hard to see that ”if it has to be it is up to me”...sigh.

So some little problems that I had to figure out for myself. I think it will be the story of the rest of my life from now on. It is an uncomfortable feeling, knowing that there is just me. No-one else to make decisions, no-one else to bounce ideas off, no-one else to be concerned with the minute details of every day life. Of course there hasn’t been for several years but while Ray was here I was able to keep that idea going. Silly eh?