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My blog is all about things I think about & also growing up in wisdom

HostAsha

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I started this blog to just write about ordinary things about my life which makes life extraordinary. Though as I get thoughtful comments on my blogs, it has made my blog into my self discovery & growing up in wisdom. My stroke suddenly awakened me from my sleepwalking through life & made me question lot of things like who am I. I realized I was attaching lot of my self worth to what I did prestroke & money I made. looking deeply into it & thinking through it I want to blame my parents lol for not raising me with high self esteem about myself. Though I feel I am adult now & have to take responsibility for my self esteem. no one is allowed to make you feel bad about yourself. I am working on that inner child who always felt she was not pretty enough, and not good enough. though ofcourse I compensated that feeling by being very smart in studies & doing very well in my career. but one stroke & that was gone in a second. I thrive on thank yous & good job or money compensation to feel I m worthy to be on this earth lol.So my next challenge for myself is to increase my self esteem about myself. it has to come from me.

 

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Jayallen

Asha I wish you countless blessings on you self introspection. You are the most beautiful person I've ever met. I measure beauty through words and deeds you have been a huge inspiration to me and I love your blog

you aren't afraid to put yourself out there

You are an amazing person someday we will meet

Jay

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Jayallen

Asha, Pre stroke, we all tied our persona to what we did, I was an excellent boss. I strived to take care of my employees .  I ran on the assumption "if I take care of my employees, they will take care of business. 

Post stroke has led me to self introspection/ analysis.

I've always loved to write, so therefore my blog.  And I have something to share with my fellow survivors and perhaps the world.

your writing is Amazing.

I love a good thank you or an "atta boy or as we joked at work, There were two of us in similar positions we were always drafting letters for the CEO to sign and send.  If I got a response of Nice job, I called it an A paper.

 

It's always safe to blame the parents, I blame my father for my work ethic.  he said to me " I don't care what you do with your life just make sure you are the best at it, he said if you dig ditches, make sure they are the best darn ditches anyone has ever seen."

I am happy to say my kids have the same work ethic, much like me, when they take on a project, they give 110%

Best wishes and prayers for you as you seek yourself and create your new persona,

You truly are my twin by another mother, someday, someway we will meet.

be well my friend,

love,

jay

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GeorgeLesley

Asha, As I have said many times, life has seasons. Like all seasons, life seasons do not last forever, the goods seasons as well as the bad seasons. Having a stroke definitely changes the :season" immediately. Whether is is a totally bad season or one that gradually becomes a new spring season is up to each of us to work out. Sounds to me like your spring is becoming a beautiful summer. 

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Jayallen

Much like being able to laugh at ourselves I think it critical to our continued growth to take time for introspection and self analysis. I only hope I like the person I find at the end of the day. Lol

Peace,

Jsy

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SassyBetsy

Yes,as differently abled people now we judge ourselves differently. Where are the role models. We must have self compassion and find our value inside. Then we can Advocate for ourselves.

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