It takes trust. I questioned,I complied when I was unsure. The doc said I exasperated her,she broke my trust when sh did not respond to my calls when I tried a new medication. She said I had run out of opiates when there are others to try. She said I made her feel like she failed and she had nothing to offer. She said that pain is a matter of choice,a cognitive decision.
I said I cannot will the pain away, but 0I would try biofeedback. Since I had the procedure,she said I do not need meds.
I said i could try ocycontin,oxycodon or a pain pump. She too dangerous.
She offered Elavil. I am already on max dose effexor. I declined. I hope to wean off because my mouth dryness bothers me so bad. I wonder if it helps . I had to take shots, other pills. I have options.
believe me i pray,walk more inspite of pain, visualize myself running in my shoes,positive meditate enough energy to light up 20 blocks,but the pain persists.
I said softly to her through teats those darn tears dont you know what stroke pain is like and she said shr worked with stroke patients.
She said maybe another doc could help me.
I agreed and asked her to clear me so i can
Get another doc. She said fine and slammed the door on her way out.
I made a follow up apppt with procedure doc.
I wish i had been a better patient,but it helped a little but Never enough and foggy.
I never made her happy to see me. I never felt liked or respecd. I felt like a drug seeker talking to her.
I feel she never intended to continue to help me.