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I Dont Feel Good Today



For the last 2 nights I have fallen asleep around 7pm and woke up for about 30 minutes before going back to sleep. Each night sleeping 11 hours. I had a Dr. Appointment yesterday due to some chronic hoarseness I have been experiencing since January. She poked all around my larynx area (painful) and I showed her a lump I have on my neck (wasn't sure it was there but she says yes it is and the Dr. needs to know)(she is a voice therapist-part of my treatment). Anyways, I'm thinking great. Now we go forward to last night around 12 and I woke up feeling sick...neck pain, muscle aches and joint pain, headache, sore throat, general Ill feeling. I was also extremely tired so I went back to sleep until 8 this morning. Today my sister's step girls are here while she and their dad are at work and my patience is low. My stepmom is at the dentist having 6 teeth pulled and a lower denture plate placed in. My dad now with his diagnosis of cancer tells me to help my stepmom today and complains about the girls warning their ego waffles in the toaster. The nurse calls from the ENT office and tells me to make an appointment with my PCP first about my neck and then we'll go from there. I have already cleaned the kitchen because I do that. My stepmom left a bag of dirty clothes next to the downstairs door and that means wash them. I am nauseous and my fingers feel swollen and I feel like crap. I just want/need to lay down and rest. Oh and I have to take the trash out. Lord please give me the energy and the patience to get through the day. :screaming:


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Oh bother Tracy, I do hope you made it through the day without a melt down!  Any bug/illness knocks you sideways after a stroke, your immune system just doesn't cope.  But as you know life goes on and the jobs still have to get done. This is where living with other people can be hard, you don't want to let them down and they have their own issues so they are much less likely to notice you are not well, and you don't want to "burden" them with your current weakness.  But you are allowed to say to the girls "I'm not very well today and neither is Pop, so try to be helpful today".  Can you get them to help you with cleaning the kitchen or doing the washing, or taking the trash out. I'm not sure of their ages/skills but I always found that was the best way to deal with my nieces and nephews when their Mum was not well.  My sister could never understand why they would do things for me that they wouldn't do for her, but I think it was that I got them to help me rather than just asked them to do it alone.

I hope you feel better soon and that the Docs can sort out your throat.

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Heather, I made it. I did ask the girls if they would sit quietly keeping themselves busy watching a tv show for an hour so I could rest for a bit. The girls said oh no worries Tracy we'll be right in here...take a rest and let us know if you need anything. They are 11 & 12. It was just what I needed to reenergize my batteries a bit. Got up and made my Dr. appointment for the 30th, battled a debt collector who was very rude to me on the phone (I called the Dr. Office where the bill originates and explained I have my new paperwork for financial assistance ready to fax and I needed the total of my bills for one of the answer boxes which she nicely got for me. I then told her about the very not nice lady I had just spoken with and she reassured me that once they receive my paperwork they will fix it and to just ignore the nasty woman and not answer if I didn't want to.) She was so nice that I sorta cried a bit thanking her. She reassured me not to worry. That was my little melt down but I came out feeling ok after. I faxed my paperwork in and it was time to take the girls to my sister. Bad mornings don't always mean bad rest of the day👍👍. I am not going to worry myself about the throat issue...I'm just going to take it one step at a time. I have been feeling the relief from doing that about other things. I'm just going to do the same. 🙂

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That sounds much more hopeful, Well done  One step at a time is good. :shy:  When you can't change things you have to just roll with it.

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