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Manic Monday



Well Monday I go back to work for the first time in 9 years. As we all know, living on Social Security and single, is very difficult. It is so expensive to live in New Jersey, or any where for that matter. Don't get my wrong, I'm thankful for what I do get but it's so tight. I know when I finish with orientation, two weeks 70 hrs., I'll go to part-time so I'll have down time. I've been trying to stay busy everyday to get adjusted to staying focused and that hasn't really gone as I  hoped. I'm good for a few days but after that I completely shut down.

  I know I sabotage myself by pushing back on things, I know I do it and still I get worried. My head, on today it has been raining, feels like you've been on a tire swing and spun super fast and now you're trying to walk. I often call it my A-HA walk. in the video he bounces back and forth on walls. I know I just have to do my best and I know once my air ducts and/or AC unit cleaned or new, I'll feel better. Breathing in mold, as I have for the past 4 years causes chronic fatigue ( on top of the fatigue I already have).. I'll put my best foot forward.   🤞🏻:holy-moly:


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Kelli I am thinking about you and your new adventures. I'm pulling for you...Those 1st 2 weeks are going to be hard I know. I believe in you and know once things get settled you'll do great. Fear of the unknown...that's what I think during this time of change. I know it makes me think about unknown things in future. I look up to you and am very proud of your umph! Get the 2 weeks past, get the moldy air problem kicked, and you should know I am cheering for you all the way!! 🤘👨‍👩‍👦 <---- I don't know where the family came from but I must have selected it but I can't figure out how to remove it?

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hey kelli :


good luck on your new job adventure, it will be hard in the beginning, but never give up or quit, once you stick it out, things will start to get easier. God always help out in many different forms. So give it a shot, you never know what you are capable of until you try.




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Hey Kelli, I'm rooting for you, yes those first 2 weeks are going to be killer. I do hope you've managed to organise some extra help at home or at least got your meal prep done and in the freezer.  You'll want to be able to get home eat and crash and proper nutrition will make it a whole lot easier to cope with. It will get easier once you get into a pattern with it.



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I envy you. You will be back in the living world. Get all those ADA things to make your life better. It will be a challenge but this your second chance. I hope you like what you will do and you make new buds, wear great clothes, have fun with it.


Vestibular challenges are daily fun house events, just walking down the hall.


You are strong and able to do everything tossed your way. And when it overwhelms, make them understand.



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