It is hard to find the inner strength to 'get out there' sometimes but when you do, like you did, it is so fulfilling to know you are stronger than what you thought. We are often so worried to impress "them" that we can do everything. "Them" is , like you said, is our ego and that is a 'them' that can be so hard to silence them. We, whether we admit it or not, have always been judgmental towards other people that couldn't do a good job. I know I was always raised to 'do your best' but I always had a hard time in school, for ADD, I always wanted to do a good job the first time doing something so I allowed my ego to dictate my life. 

 Now, I know that there are  somethings I can't do again, like I once did, I don't let my ego ruin my life. I truly don't care what others think, honestly, for at the end of the day, I am the only one that lives my life. In my head, I truly think this how snarky this is, I have elevated myself higher above others. Not in a 'I'm the prima donna' or entitled but I see it as I've beat death and I know that all of these petty things don't matter at the end of the day.

I think I’m still trying to figure out what my comfort zone is.

Kelli :

you nailed it. That's why I feel stroke was valuable teacher for me or us, which allowed us look beyond petty things. & grow spiritually & mentally how cool is that.

Asha