let's see,it's been a while sence i last bloged .wha'ts been happening?.i got a new a/c,the old one died in the last heat snap,my dad got me a super industal fan(before i got the a/c,i passed my follow up apartment inspection,funny my landlady came marching in w/ her camera turned the corner to the kitchen,staghten her back& said WOW!,did you get help?no,noi did it all my self just got a few things& now i know what the stanard is i won't fail again i've been board nothing to do nowhere to go was thinking of going to N.Y. to catch a show,but thought myself out of it waste of money(i need a new t.v.)besides i could have just as much fun in portland mane &see a few friend there+i have a place to stay,it's not like the old days& leave on a whim jump in a car or van &go my shink would say i'm depressed,but i'm not,i just don't see thowing your self intoactivativitys you can nill aford just to be doing something? for my metal health?to proove toyourself your "alright" or "normal" pretand your in the rat raceyou'll feel better about your self?(iget that alot from the shink)....well i'm NOT "alright"& i'm NOT "normal",i'm young& disabled with very little to look forward to but being old&disabled,witch was very little to do w/ my self worth to my mind,but seamingly nobody elses,when i figure out a new "carere path i'll let you& every body else know,ops... a semi rant sorry.i think i need to hit p-town& have a stedy diet of osters on the half shell& bloodymary chasers or more fine dining trips,i went out& spent 50$ on a meal it was wonderful! have to do it more often,since i'm eating for onehe,he,he...oh...well i think i'll turn on that a/c now

see ya's around the board/chat

sam