I have so many issues going on in my life I'm confused and discouraged.

1)I need to lose weight

a)tired of fat ass clothes...ugly fashions,blubber bulging out over pants, can't wear nice clothes purchased when thin.

b)difficulty putting on shoes and tying them...get out of breath,

c)I look like a cow

d) want my hubby to be happy to be seen with me in public

e)Fat people are looked down on by most of public as inferior and/or stupid

2)What to do during day

a) I tire so easily I have no ambition to do anything

b)neighbor lady irritates me so completely....I figured that out that now I feel obliged to have to be her friend she has no friends...never has her husband was her only friend he died in 1998 now, since I 'have nothing to do'(before my stroke I ran my own business out of my home so was always busy during the day) she has shoved her way into my limited life and assumed the few friends I do have. I may not see her all day and as soon as my husband drives in our drive she shows up with the newspaper and things she would like help with...changing light bulb(she's short. I don't even get a private time with my husband before she rings our doorbell.

c)I am so innept at doing things anymore...I had to PM Jean Riva twice before I could get my blog going.

d)it's freezing outside so no walks outside

3) Son is 20 and has fu*#ed his life up so far. dropped out of high school got his GED, got arrested twice for theft, his ambition is to get high on pot and drunk, he has a DUI record. He does have a good job he has been diligent about getting $ so he can pay off his fines. He blames us saying that we spoiled him by giving him new toys and/things whenever he was in trouble..... I blame his dad for that and his dad wouldn't discipline son. wouldn't allow me to attempt to discipline...son learned that mom would allways say no and dad would always say yes.

4)more to come....need a break for now.