know how ya feel, ditto for me, I've felt like this since 42 (time of stroke) and now I just turned 46 and I feel about as useful-mean -less.

I esp. feel like this when I'm tired and if I don't hit the sack at nine, I'm tired the next day. Yesterday got to bed around 10 and today I feel like a zombie, total dead head. To hopefully make tomorrow better I'm sure as heck going to sleep early, it's so hard, cause I have teens and I'm messing up their having fun and growing up time by making them go to bed so early....I wish the fatigue would end....and wish I'd feel like I've got something to contribute...sorry feel about like yu today

JANICE,

I HAVE THOSE I FEEL OLD FAT AND UGLY DAYS TOO. I CAN'T SEE EITHER. COULD BEFORE THE STROKE THOUGH. I CAN SEE OK OUTA MY RIGHT EYE, COMPARED TO THE DAMAGED ONE, BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO READ ANY PRINT AT ALL*** PERIOD, SINCE STROKE WITHOUT GLASSES.

THAT'S WHY I STARTED WRITING IN CAPS. NOT TRYING TO "SCREAM" BUT I CAN TYPE FASTER IF I CAN SEE WHAT I AM TYPING RATHER THAN HAVING TO "EYEBALL" THE SCREEEN. ONE DAY IN CHAT A FRIEND OF MINE WAS TYPING IN LOWER CASE AND I COULDNT KEEP UP. I FINALLY TOLD HIM MY EYES WERE REALLY WEAK THAT DAY. THAT NUT SWITCHED TO THE MOST OBNOXIOUS FONT YOU HAVE EVER SEEN IN YOUR LIFE.

IT WAS ABOUT 6 INCHES HIGH AND IN THE BOLDEST PRINT YOU COULD FIND!!! I ABOUT FELL OFF OF MY CHAIR LAUGHING. HE IS A SURVIVOR TOO. LUCKILY HIS SIGHT WAS UNAFFECTED.

YOUR HUSBAND LOVES YOU BECAUSE HE SEES WHAT I DO, A BEAUTIFUL PERSON WHO IS WILLING TO GIVE OF HERSELF AND HER HEART TO THOSE SHE LOVES.

LOVE YA

KIM

Janice,

Glad to see you back on the site and blogging again. I've been wondering how you and your husband have been doing with his cancer treatments.

You know what, when couples have been together for a long time, I don't think any of us really see the changes in physical appearance in our mates as much as we see them in ourselves. I think the image of our mate is fixed in the brain more at the age we were when we each fell in love. I've seen many elderly couples who claim their mates haven't changed a bit when obviously they did physically. But the physcial body is not what they are seeing, what they fell in love with. Kim is probably right, your husband sees the woman (personality wise) that he fell in love with, who helped raise his son, and who takes care of him when he's ill.

Jean