just what i need...
ok, this probably is going to be a different tone than my usual entries, apologies in advance....
i've mentioned my pool t before, and that i have ptsd... well, theres this guy in the class (with arthritis, not stroke) that always stands too close, especially when behind me, pushes every one of my ptsd triggers;but i've been trying to tell myself that its just an old reaction, he wasn't going to hurt me, i was an adult now, etc, yada yada yada... people tried to tell me i was overreacting to him, etc....
well, last class he was telling me he was upset because he'd been supposed to move;but the new apartment rejected his application at the last moment.... because they'd discovered he was a registered sex offender.....
so now i'm a bit freaked about going back to class, he did say it was a class something or other felony from 11 years ago and that he can supposedly get it removed from his record by proving he completed probation - on one hand i figure it must be a lesser offense if they're willing to remove it, on the other it bothers me that it could be removed, in any case i'm going to need all my inner strength to go back to the next class, cause i'm not willing to give up my continued improvement - i'm not letting this steel any more of my life from me !!!
lol, now remind me to reread that to firm up my resolve before i go to class next week.....
i promise to be back to my usual self next entry, if i haven't scared you all away yet.... thanks for being here
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