All these self doubt questions.

Combined with hubby's continued cold shoulder to me,

has had me thinking of old guy friends. Just wondering what is happening in their world. Found an old love letter from one guy, now, when I read it I can plainly see he was very smitten with me but at the time I couldn't see it. I wonder if I'd be a nasty person if I were to try to locate this fellow and see what's happening in his world.... this relationship happened 25+ years ago and never kept in touch.

It just would be so nice to have someone who really truly loves me and thinks a lot about me, instead of how mean he can be to punish me for old offenses.