I'm supposed to be working but, I'm not. My shoulders and neck ache like the day I had my stroke. I take a deep breath, knowing the stress of the 18 orders and three problems sitting on my desk are probably responcible for this "panic attack". I'm not hot or tingly on my left side, and just because my hearts beating like a salsa dancer, doesn't mean I'm going to have another stroke. I have an appointment coming in at 11:00 and I've got to get this "panic and pain" under control by then. I'm scared but, there's nothing I can do. Until it happens again, if it happens again, will I wonder and "panic" everytime I'm under a little stress? Working under stress used to be so easy. Deadlines were no big deal. New designs poured on to the paper like water. I won awards in my industry for creativity. Now, I'm almost better off looking at a career where the toughest thing you do all day is ask people "Do you want fries with that?'

I'm stressing big time and the Doctor's say that's what caused my stroke to begin with.

I can't quit - it's a family business and I've tried before. Maybe I'll join Jean and Cinder in the witness protection program. I'd get away from my family and my work. Anyone know a good ganster?