Well I guess I really didn't realize what was going on the last 6 months off n on. Was trying to act upbeat and okay. Felt like I was seeing the world through a fog and going backwards. I didn't understand why or waht was going on.

I thought I was doing a good job "hiding" my feelings, and try to cope.

The last couple weeks I would get really emotional and cry very easilly,

I had much happen the last few month. My best friends passing. Flying back to Cleveland, seeing my sons grave. Spending time with my sister and family and working on the family cook book ( pressure to get it done in time for the reunion.

My husband was short handed at work and I tried to go in a few days and help, besides just normal daily things here at home.

Well the melt down came... I am not like this normally I have been the care taker,

I took care of son during his illness and death. I ran a dialysis machine at home for over a year for my former husband, cooked his special diet and kept logs on food, etc. while working 4 days a week with a teenage daughter. He passed away. I was a widow at 30 with a 13 year old. WHERE did my strenght go, why am I an emotional wreck now.. Where is that strong person....?

I had a dr's appointment for a follow up on my labs and I guess it was lucky that it was during melt down and I was not doing very well trying to hide it...

He saw the emotional wreck...he said how long has this been going on, he said I think the Zoloft is not working...let's try something new....at this point I am ready for anything. He said Cymbalta is a new drug it is used for antidepressant but also used for Diabetics with neuropathy it has Serotonin and also norephedrine so it should also help with the muscle/nerve pain you have.

Within a couple days of taking it... It is working. John and I sat down and had a good talk (and apparently I wasn't hiding my emotions tooo well) he said just even the look on my face was not my usual self. He could see a difference right away.... he said this is amazing...

I had to go into town yesterday and instead of the usual blue jeans and sweat shirt and straight hair... I put on slacks, a sweater, curled my hair and .....make-up.. I walked into his store and he said WOW you look so pretty...

the fog has lifted from my brain and I may not quite be ready to tackle anything ..... I back up!!!