hey AJ:

I went through same thing for long time and still trying to figure out what is my purpose, just being productive at work would give me satisfaction I got before, or being stay at home mom and making difference in my kido's life will do the trick, as you saw my last blog I m still fumbling and searching, but I know I will get there by giving my best shot to whatever I can do. I think as someone told me once start doing small things which you like to do and keep on adding up on list and pretty soon you will be happy with your lot in life, I guess we all go through this kind of stages, maybe you are going towards road of acceptance. As usual I blabbered on and might not make any sense

Asha