Since my journey to recovery I began I find that I have learned that was a lot going on around me that I didn't even realize. I know my life/work contributed to my stroke, but I only just recently discovered that those surrounding me also contributed. I never realized that my family was sooo dysfunctional. Yesterday I attended my nephews 4th birthday party and the funny thing I found was eventhough the kids were all over the place they were the only normal ones in the house.

I could go on and on about what happened with the kids mostly funny stuff , I had a blast with them we had a kids song CD and we danced :happydance: and had a great time...but I will shift my gears to the adults (my family) the not so funny stuff. I don't know, but since I have tried to "RE-INVENT" myself I am seeing that those around me need to be "RE-INVENTED" too. I am not trying to change anyone just myself but my, my, my everyone could use a little push in the right direction. When sitting with the adults I find I just sit back and observe :gleam: , the conversations, the communications it's unbelievable. No one listens to what the other is saying, while of course the "Monarch" of the family is telling everyone what to do. It was really a sight to see. I knew we had issues but I am learning that the whole family is kinda WACK .

I think since I have been trying to clear my head and change the way I live I might judge others a bit harsh, but I only want to be normal...I was happy just living or so I thought, but what I was doin' wasn't livin'. I see that there is so much more to do and since my stoke it really opened my eyes to know that tomorrow "really" isn't guaranteed. I read somewhere (maybe someones post), that you learn how prepared you really ARE NOT after a stroke. I am a horrible procrastinator, always saying I will do it tomorrow or later. Well tomorrow or even later "ain't "guaranteed. I want my family to join me on my journey to better days but "that'll happen" :big_grin: .