in high school i had a friend named scott WHO "CLICKED with me immediately!!!! we have stayed friends ever since. he was nearly as smart as i was and we would carry on COMPLETE conversations using the first letters of every word. it drove our classmates insane!!!! it was our "secret language" . we could stand right in front of some one and say " LAS (pause) STSLSG (pause) BIBSGTP!!!!!!!

transalation: Look At Susan. She Thinks She Looks SO Good. But I Bet She's Gained Ten Pounds!!!!!

it took me twenty minutes to write that down and then type it in when i USED to be able to talk like that for an hour without even thinking. since my stroke i can't seem to get ANYTHING!!!! my mind is short circuited somehow. it took me MONTHS to find out what LOL meant. i finally gave up trying to figure it out and asked someone. :

scott called me a couple of weeks ago and when i answered he said "HK." (Hi Kim)

even though i remembered what he was doing, i couldn't even figure THAT easy one out. i just had to tell him i couldn't think that fast anymore. i could hear the heart break in his voice. it makes me sad. i am NO longer that smart. i have got to accept it because i really don't think it will get better, although i try to make myself think all of the time.

i will NOT give up. losing my intelligence and common sense is like an ice skater losing the use of a leg. it's all i have ever really counted on in myself and at MY age, looks and charm just don't cut it!!!! ( i'm not pretending to have either one of those attributes either!!)

ANYWAY, i think i'm feeling sorry for my self today but i have WAY too much to do so i guess i had better get started!!!!!