I am writing this blog as I am watching the world cup Brazil v Japan. It is a very exciting match. The wonders of broadband. Japan are winning. I am sorry USA were knocked out earlier today. Good news for some Australia have just equalised against Croatia.

We have booked a family activity holiday, partly because we think it will be the last holiday the boys will come on holiday with us. We have limitless walking and cycling, and can choose one other activity like climbing, white water rafting, horse riding, paragliding. That is included in the price. The rest of them have said they want to do paragliding, so we have booked that. The boys also want to do climbing and rafting.

Ever since we have booked the holiday I have been worrying about it. It is expected that I will participate in all the activities. I think the rest of the family are wearing rose tinted spectacles, they dont seem to see my limitations.

There is no way I could run to lift off a paraglider, even if it is in tandem.

I cant walking for miles. I can potter about going at my own speed

I can cycle but not fast or far. I might not even be able to get on the bike if I have to swing my leg over the back of the saddle. I have to step through the middle.

When we all went skiing 18 mths ago it was accepted I wouldnt ski. I had a lovely time pottering about, sleeping reading and met up with them all at teatime.

I think now I want to be able to do these activties, but have to accept I cant, or am I being too negative.

I am worried that I will get little support from the family. They are all worried I will embarass them. I can accept that from the boys thats teenagers for you. I feel hurt that hubby seems to be taking that attitude as well. He didnt tell the travel company I have limitations. He says either I will mange or we can sort it when we get there. ( We have got travel insurance that wasnt a problem).

Maybe I am worrying unnecessarily. We can sort it out when we get there. Maybe I should just accept my limitations and be happy I can do a little, even if not all.

We are due to go beginnig of July. I will let you know how i get on.

Thanks for listening. I am sorry i am moaning, I do appreciate how lucky I have been.

Mary