Was on chat tonite for the first time in ages. Nice. Thanks sue for staying and Sarah. havent chatted with denny for a long long time.

I really should comment alot more. Just feel like I am floundering and after so long...its been 1 year and 8 months today since the first stroke. What a change in my life.

Hard to get used to not working. Financially too. Geting harder in that way. Have to find a way to make some cash.

Put alot of bills on a credit card and that makes me nervous. Never had debt before.

I have to remember to be thankful. For surviving, for being home, for making it so far. I will think of more.

I dont know.

Cant sleep. Too much on my mind. Cant stop thinking, praying, worrying, praying, crying, praying.

I hope God hears.

Always thought I would work til I dropped over. Thought it would be a heart attack. Sometimes I wish...

Thats not good.

Just want to feel better.

Soon