I'm not feeling overly "bloggy" today. Mostly tired...mostly drained...doing OK.

Therapy was challenging today...I really confronted the source of my insecurities. No need to get into it here but I'm feeling a little spent from addressing them.

I was also brought back to my initial observations in my first two blogs about what is going on for Jane right now...her relationship demons intersecting with my demons, exacerbated by the stroke. The stroke has made her unable to address her demons right now...and her pulling away evokes my own insecurities. That is what I was brought to... The hope is time will allow her to develop the emotional strength to fight back her insecurities about intimacy...to be willing to fight back and relearn to trust our relationship again. Everyone says TIME HEALS...especially with strokes. She was emotionally strong before this so that is an advantage. Another advantage is that when we were together, the connections seemed to be there...all the groundwork to make this work. My therapist said to be sure NOT to push...not to cling and not to pressure her...just talk to her when she calls. That, of course, was my plan but I am understanding more and more why that is important and imperative.

So I'm trying to breathe and remind myself to be careful as we talk...when we talk...when she calls... Hopefully that will be soon...