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9 months since my stroke


Blonde Eyes

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Nine months ago today, I woke up at 4:00 a.m. having a stroke. Sometimes it seems like I have always been a stroke survivor and sometimes it seems like it just happened a couple of months ago. Thankfully, it no longer feels like it was just yesterday. That's a milestone!

 

I wonder sometimes if I will ever feel like the old me again. I wonder if I will always be haunted by this fatigue that can just wash over me in an instant, and usually when I'm not in a place where I can just collapse like I would like to.

 

There are times that I no longer notice I have lost all my right side vision, and times when it seems like it just happened all over again. The claustrophobia engulfs me and my brain struggles to try to see what it can't.

 

I have come so far since the beginning, when my sister tells me I couldn't speak above a whisper and I could barely walk around the block one time with assistance. I have long since given up the cane and I can even drive now!

 

I count myself among the fortunate, that the stroke obviously affected my life, but now does not consume every minute of it. I am working two days a week again and even though some days I feel I can't make it to the end, I feel grateful that I can even attempt it. I'm finally feeling well enough to do some things around the house that I've been puttting off and am again waking up with high (although my high is quite a bit lower than it used to be!) expectations for the day ahead. It feels good to be able to say that.

 

 

 

 

 

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hi Blonde eyes:

 

its so good that you are able to look ahead and even when you look past you are seeing how far you have come, congratulation on your 9 month.

 

counting our blessings is big step in staying away from negativity.

 

Asha

 

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Hi,

 

Your attitude is great, and with that, I am sure that there will be continued improvement in your well being.

 

I am just a few days shy of 9 months post stroke, and I struggle from time to time, but never for long, as I feel it can only make matters worse.

 

For some survivors, they have no expectations on a daily basis. :tongue: Got to keep ourselves moving forward, I say, and I know you do to.

 

Bob

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Congrats on the 9 months.

 

I'm not sure if the fatigue gets better or 'we" learn to handle it better and learn to try to prioritize. If I am in a situation where I can when I start to feel it come on if I can sit and rest for 15 to 20 minutes I can usually get up and carry on. My pace is defininately slower.. but then there was the tortise and the hare.

 

Best wishes always

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