I have said that having a stroke is fate. I have said that where a person gets a stroke is fate. I understand that bad things happen to good people. I consider myself to be a good person but today I have to wonder why I was made a survivor. I have said that being a survivor is not free and that it is pay-back time. This pay back is in the form of helping "newbies" That said, I need help with the awful turn of events that have happened today. We know that the lightning rod symbol is the universal symbol of stroke because it happens so quickly- just like an auto accident. Today, while driving to work on a 2 lane rural road in the dark and raining quite heavily, I had an awful accident. The trooper who investigated was the same man who I had had a previos issue with. Wonder what the odds are of that? I was driving close to the center line because it was a gold reflective type (had reflectors) and the side line was a dirty white with no reflectors which then becomes a ditch not too far off the road. He said that when 2 objects hit a mark is made and that it showed my tire was over the line. The driver of the oncoming car hit me on the side and then I believe he hit the car behind me and then the next car apparently spun around because perhaps he braked and hit another car. The person who hit me took off - was a hit and run. My car crossed the road and headed for the drainage ditch and stopped just short of going in the water of the ditch- it seemed quite deep. I didn't know where I was or that allt this had happened and could see that I was "in the woods". Both air bags deployed. I was not injured (however somehow my pinkie toe on my left foot (the good one) felt like a brise or something. I son't know how that happened. When asked, I was told that one of the people got a bump on the head (and I thought- oh no) An ambulance came but I don't believe he was taken to a hospital. I was asked if I wanted to go to the hospital since I was obviously shaken up - very cold, shaking from that at times, wet etc. and very alone. Since my car traveled, I was quite a distance from the others. 4 cars were involved and 3 were towed. So, while I was not the hitter, IF I was over the line at all, I am responsible. I really do not think I was-- close to it but not about 6-8" as the trooper indicated, Of course that doesn't matter how much. The fact that the man took off doesn't help or hinder.

I know we are not to ask why? but I am. I was doing nothing wrong such as drinking or on drugs. In fact, I do not drive fior several hours after taking my meds and usually take the pill with me and take it after I arrive. I am on the patch but do not take any tranquilizers, anti depressants etc. The sad part was yesterday when I arrived for work, I was sent home because there were not enough people and I am a 3rd party worker (I don't really understand this) I asked if I should stay home tomorrow and was told, he would not know until today when people came or did not. When I called to say why I wasn't there, I found that I would have been sent home. Fate? Or just plain lousy luck? Can anyone explain this. I need a job, but this wasn't what I wanted and in fact my division had been changed to a new division when I could work at the time I wanted not at a time when the team works. Strange indeed.