I'm not sure that fairness, justice etc is anywhere in the stroke journey for stroke survivor or caregiver. I think the goal is more to strive , to reach out, to keep on going. We all, no matter how far down the track, long to go back to the way things were.

I would like my husband back healthy and strong, and I would like to go back to my job etc. But it is never going to be that way. I hear some of the things you say as echos of the things I said myself in the first few years. I don't know how you get to an acceptance but one day you see that this is the way life is - and you just live it day by day.

I 'll just send you some (((HUGS))) to let you know I hear what you say and wish you well.

Sue.

i know how you feel and once was there myself. that was 5yrs ago, now its not so bad but i do have those thoughts again sometimes but then i try to think of something else. a stroke has ripped our lives away as we knew it, so now we have to adapt and move on or else nothing gets better. this is life, we didn't ask for it but we have to deal with what is thrown our way. you have a family that loves you, do the best you can. we all understand how you feel, but being strong is a gift. i hope things get better for you, smile it helps.

kanderson

hey RLT :

I can identify with what you are saying, but I am also proud of the fact that even in tough situation like these, you are still making lemonade out of lemon, so make best out of every situation. & keep patting yourself that due to your strength things are still rolling, big feat to achieve.

Asha

Thank you for your comments. I am just starting to unravel just how to respond to comments left on my blog.

It is so true that fairness and justice are not really part of the picture for any of us. I suppose if we truly receive what we deserve we would be in much worse condition. The lesson of acceptance is a hard one to learn. Just when I think I have it mastered, I find myself in whine mode again!

All one has to do is read other posts on this site to realize there is always someone who has it so much worse. Still, I promised myself that this blog was the one place I would allow myself to express whatever I was feeling at the time. Sometimes just recording my thoughts is a good way to get them out of my system.