hey Amie:

Welcome to our wonderful world of blogging, if you blog constantly you will reap therpetic benefits of it. first and foremost don't feel guilt about the way you feel, but I remember in the begining of my stroke stage I was in very selfish stage, even I m sometimes now, my problems are bigger than everybody else was my regular tune if somebody whines to me abt their problem.

tell your hubby to write down gratitude journal every day, just tell him to find five blessings in his life each day and record it, that helped me greatly.

Ann,

Welcome to the blog community. As Asha said, do not feel guilty. Having guilt is not healthy for either of you. Has the CPS been diagnosed by a doc as of yet- if not, be sure to bring it to the doctor's attention. If it has, then possibly your hubby could benefit from seeing a pain management specialist. Stroke has entered his life and yours, but there are definitely blessings to be counted for each day.

(((hugs))) to you both

A gratitude journal sounds like a fantastic idea.... thank you. Just have to figure out a way to get him to do one though, he is still one of "those men" that think they are just to macho to cry or show certain emotions... but maybe If I start one and leave it out for him to see and read, accidently of course......

No he has not been officially diagnosed to CPS, but I am taking him to VA tomorrow to try and get him accepted there for health care. If that happens then I will be able to get him to go to a doctors without complaint of how much $$ out of pocket it costs. Please cross fingers and say prayers.

Hugs to everyone