Well in reference to my last blog... I called the medical review board at Raleigh to schedule a hearing because I never heard back from them after the neurologist filled out my medical evaluation. It just so happens that the board couldn't even make a decision because the neurologist forgot to send the last page of the evaluation which includes his signature. Atfirst I was happy because I thought yay this means I wasen't denied again. but then i came back to reality and remembered well I also wasen't approved neither. So yesterday I got the last sheet in the mail. My only problem now is I have to get to the neurologist in the next 30 days BUT he's booked for the next month already and the last page along with the notice is dated September 17th. So the best I can do (according to the receptionist) is try to get by the neurologist's office before christmas during his lunchbreak and see if he will fill out the papers really quick. If only whoever mailed the evaluation wouldn't have forgot that last page, I would not have this run around. It's just not meant for me to drive!

And to those who are telling me to wait on driving, I really cant. I get so depressed having to wait and be an inconvenience on family and friends all the time! I am 18 now. I don't just want to drive so I can party and go to the mall all the time. I have to get to the store off campus sometimes, I have so many doctor appointments. My dad gets upset when he has to take off work all the time to take me places and get my brother to work. I still feel like a 12 year old going places with my mom and dad except now I have to spend my own money. They're always in my business and since I have to ride with them everytime I need to go somewhere, they still treat me like a child and not a grown woman handling business.

Today I seen my pain management doctor again. I am already on the baclofen but now he is suggesting I take botox. My nosey overprotective scared dad doesn't want me to take it but i don't care. Im grown. He's not allowed to come in my appointments because i am grown therefore he doesnt have any say so in what I do. I am willing to try anything that can help me in any way and I truly believe my hand would feel better with a combination of the baclofen, botox, and OT. Anyway sorry this is so long