I just took a look at my midterm grades and I have 3 As, a B, and a C. I keep reminding myself of that fortune cookie I opened a couple of years ago which read "do not let great ambitions overshadow small success". I just feel defeated. There is nothing else I could have done. It is not my fault my Geography teacher has office hours when I have class and is never in his office during the hour I don't have class. I read the book, I studied, I did everything. I guess a C is better than an F. but I have a feeling, my instructor only gave me a C for effort and so I would not be put on academic probation. I can bring my Biology grade up but this C in Geography makes me pull my hair out. Right now I am supposed to be on Spring break but I can not even enjoy it due to the fact that I am stressed about grades and studying the whole week so I can be prepared to do better. It does not matter that I have 3As and am 1 letter grade from having 4 As or that I got accepted to go to China. All I can think of is my first C. I do have time to make it up before finals but that seems impossible considering C was only my midterm grade and if I average it with my previous 2 Fs, it wont even be a C anymore. I guess last year I just got lucky with all those As. I was never really smart in the first place.

Anyway I know you guys are running out of pep talk about school so in other news I got my botox injections last week. It hurted really bad and I have a feeling OT tomorrow is not going to be less painful. but I guess no pain no gain. I just wish I did not feel like I was doing this for nothing. I want to believe that this will straighten out my arm and my wrist but reality is telling me it is too late.