I READ A NEW MEMBERS INTRO AND SHE HAS SO MANY DEFICITS FROM HER STROKE BUT SHE STILL HAD FAITH IN GOD AND A POSITIVE HEAD AND I THINK, WHERES MINE. , FAITH , MY POSITIVE THINKING?I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS A POSITIVE THINKER AND YEA I QUESTIONED MY FAITH. BUT SINCE THE STROKE MY EMOTIONS ARE STILL ALL OVER THE PLACE. THE GRIEF, DEPRESSION, THE WHY ME S THE BARGAINING STILL! LIFE JUST ISN T FAIR. I TRIED READING THE BIBLE OR A BOOK OF PRAYERS BUT I LOSE INTEREST. I ALSO SAY MY PRAYERS EVERYNITE..PRAYER FOR THE PEOPLE AMD FRIENDS I LOVE, THE STROKNET, AND IM THANKFUL I CAN WALK, TALK, ETC.. BUT WHERE IS MY FAITH?I QUESTIONED PRE STROKE AND NOW IM REALLY QUESTIONING IT POST STROKE!! MAYBE I HAVE A HARD TIME SINCE I CANNOT SEE HIM!OR MAYBE IM TRYING TO HARD AND IT WILL COME TO ME!AND MAYBE ITS HARD TO HAVE FAITH WHEN YOU DON T FEEL GOOD OR FEEL LIKE YOU DID PRE STROKE!MAYBE I REALLY NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT BEFORE AND JUST LOVED AND ENJOYED LIVING!!BUT NOW I NEED FAITH AND POSITIVE THINKING TO GET ME THROUGH THIS!!SO ILL CONTINUE TO PRAY AND BE THANKFUL AND ILL KEEP LOOKING FOR MY FAITH AND HOPEFULLY I WILL FIND IT !!!!