Maybe in my dreams, my life is quiet...... not in reality. Well I feel better, my leave has helped, except I couldn't get on the site for the last 4 days, felt cut off and anxiety filled.

I saw the lawyer on tuesday, found out I can't get divorced yet. It is all very complex and I'm not going to try to explain it here. Simply put, the agreement Kurt and I worked out that would be the best for the kids actually makes a legal mess that no judge would approve....... So I continue on with moving out, luckily for me the courts these days won't frown on me if in the meantime I find someone else. I still get to live apart from Kurt, have my legal right to the kids and house, can find someone else and live my life as I see fit. But the find someone else part is not on my to do list. I am looking forward to my time alone.

I called the cable and phone company yesterday, set up appointments for next friday so I have the important things for next weekend. I got my phone number, nice easy number to remember.... I think it paid off I used to work there, I had my choice of what number I wanted. I'm trying to coordinate the DSL being set up, so I'm online too next weekend. I may get a key to the apartment this week, which will be helpful, I can move stuff in and unpack, go grocery shopping too, hoard things like there will be no tomorrow.

Well I've got to go get the kids off to school....

Pam