I've been off the computer for a while. Haven't blogged. Haven't attended a chat. Haven't posted a comment on any of the topics lately.
Working on the computer gets difficult quickly. I'm still unable to focus, visually, and have pretty much given up on taking the valium because I keep needing more and more of it. I stop taking meds when they stop working at lower doses. So far, nothing to replace it because of drug interactions, or cost since I no longer work, have no insurance and am still going through the whole unemployment/disability thing. So, I just don't do a lot on the computer.
We have roommates now. I'm not sure if things are going to go well or not yet. there is a lot of chaos and some passive/aggressive behaviors. Hopefully things will calm down. If not, I don't know what will happen.
The one potentially bright spot is that it loks like my grandfather's estate will be finally settled by the middle to end of August. That could be th out if things don't work well with the roommats.
Then there is the issue with me being home all of the time, with only the dogs to talk to5 during hte day. I feel like I'm losing myself. I can't drive. I don't leave the house unless Sam takes me out and that is typicaly to run errands.
bring myself to paint right now. I can't see straight and am afraid that my work won't be like it was before the stroke. So I've been floundering around in my own head, trying to come to grips, all over again, with myself. I don't know how well it is working. Some days all I want to do is cry, other days all I want to do is yell. I want to get back to the days when I was, at least, content.