Kelli, value what you have. Yearning for what you no longer have is all very well but remember worry is like a rocking chair, takes a lot of energy and doesn't get you anywhere.

I do feel for you, it must be very hard to have lost those memories. Can't say I fully understand how that works but want to send you (((HUGS))) anyway.

Sue.

I know I sound like a broken record but I have always felt like I have not belonged. Like Im trying to fill in for a "kelli". Filling in ones shoes Im not sure. Being your ourn you start your own memories yes but having people knowing you and not quite understanding that you are a new you is difficult, thats all

Kelli: please try to accept that the "Kelli" you are trying to fill in for is no longer there. On top of that, you are setting yourself up to fail as you have no recollection of who that "Kelli" is. Just try to relax and comfort yourself. Spent extra time becoming reaquainted with your husband and son. They are your priorities. don't try to do what others tell you the other "Kelli" did. Be who you are now. Work out of your own comfort zone. Bruce has a saying about himself, now post stroke. He will often say "I don't know where Bruce went, but he went away from me." Sad but true. Maybe responding with a light touch "Kelli is not here right now, maybe I can answer that." Always in my prayers, Debbie

Hi Kelli: Have you consulted with any health care professional about your memory problem? If you research this using doctors or therapists you know, and use the internet, maybe eventually you will find the help you need to deal with this. Anyway, from the short time I have known you, I can say you are a fine person and that you can be at ease with those who are closest to you. It's OK to tell your son "I love you", and not be sure whether you do or not. You responded as a mother would--naturally. All the best, Henry