The grass isn't always greener
WARNING!!! This will probably be a whiny pathetic entry, leave while you still can!
I am bored, restless and lonely. I keep waiting for the warm fuzzy feelings of being on my own to settle in. They haven't shown up yet, I'm still waiting. I feel the loss of living in a rural area and not being able to drive. Yesterday marked the passage of three weeks that I've been living here and I went grocery shopping on Friday. That was the first time I had been out of the apartment in three weeks.
I have been bashed over the head with the knowledge that I haven't rebuilt to good of a life since I stroked.... I'm back to asking myself "What do I want to be when I grow up" I know three weeks isn't enough time to have dealt with all the emotional junk. I talk to the dog, but I get discouraged when his eyes start to glaze over. I even called the X up and asked if he was going shopping today? Now that is desperation for you! My highlight planned for tomorrow is watching the parade. Not that it is much of a parade.....20 different little League teams, the brownies, and the boy scouts and a couple of fire engines. it may last all of 10 minutes, it isn't much and it is sad that that will be my highlight.
Well the X just called, he is making a special trip to take me shopping. Gee, aren't I lucky?
Pam
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