I have bad news. Friday on my way home from work, I got in yet another car accident. A pick up truck knocked me off the road and I charged into a road sign and knocked over a light pole. The power lines fell on my car and my airbags bruised up my face a little. It was awful I had to sit in the car for nearly an hour before I could get out. All I could do was cry. My left hand must have jumped when I got hit and the airbags must have collided with my wrist because I had a huge blister on my wrist. I popped it but it is still a big red mark. As if I didn't get enough stares from my crippled hand, now I have this big ugly red/brown mark on my hand. I also have scars on my face and neck from the airbag and seat belt. Fortunately I did not get a ticket this time because I was not at fault. Unfortunately the guy that hit me did not get a ticket either and I do not have full coverage so I just lost another car. I was so upset.

How could God let me get hit by a car 6 days before my birthday? How could I get in 2 car accidents before even having my license for a year? I worked so hard to get mt license and my car. Why did this have to happen right when the medical review board is reviewing my files? What if they take my license away? Why does bad stuff always happen to me? Am I being punished or cursed? I just do not understand. All these thoughts were running through my head as I sat in the car enduring the pain.

Luckily, I have been taking my anti-depressant. My cousin stayed the night with me after I got in the accident and we went to my grandmother's birthday party. My whole family was there and it was a lot of fun. Nobody even could tell I'd just gotten in an accident the day before. I am so thankful I had so many positive distractions this weekend. My life had been going so great. Driving wherever I want, going to work every day making money, going out to movies and get togethers with friends every weekend. It was like the life I always wanted since high school. I still dont understand why this accident happened.

Even if I do get to keep my license , I do not want to drive anymore. I was so careful so cautious, I learned my lesson from the first accident, I was finally starting to drive in faith, not fear. Finally trusting God to keep me safe and drive as safe as I could. I just do not want to waste money on another car. I am really considering moving to the Atlanta metro area (where hopefully I wont need a car) with some of my family and trying to start over. My life is not over I just have to go in a new direction. I am determined to be happy and live my life as best I can as long as Im stuck on this earth.