Peaks and Valleys..
That's kind of how I feel today. Lisa has had a very good week in rehab. Her right arm is really starting to come back, has had regular food for lunch all week with dinner being added next week, is standing on the Tilt Table for 20 minutes at a time, and was on a recumbent bicycle for 5 minutes yesterday for the first time.
So, why am I preparing myself for what I think will be the eventual valley? I have learned from all of you here that there will be plateaus in her rehab. Why can't I enjoy the progress she is having with her, instead of hiding my true feelings of possible disappointment? I have become so pessimistic during all of this. I was never like this. I always would try to find "the good" in everything. Those days are long gone. Lisa has told me that when we first met I was the most arrogant person she had ever met. I always responded with, "It's not arrogence, it's confidence.". All that has been taken from me. I need to figure out how to get that back.
But, the peaks are starting to outnumber the valleys. Emotionally, our family is starting to have more good days than bad days. Even the kids seem happier which is all I have been hoping for. Lisa has even set a realistic date for her return home. That was very encouraging for me.
All I have for today!!
Thanks, Butch
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