It's coming Monday. It has been a very frustrating journey and has not turned out the way i want but I think it will be worth it. Voc Rehab was not going to pay, my dad's insurance denied it twice, I got the certified hand therapist to help with my appeal but even after she vouched for me that e-stim works on my hand, the reauthorization still got denied. I don't have the time or energy to keep fighting the insurance companies. I looked on the internet for used ones for sale, I called the hospitals around here to see if they have any vendors who sell it cheaper but they only have the WalkAide. So I have to buy it myself. Honestly I don't care if I end up a homeless bum in debt, it will be worth it just to be able to stretch my fingers for 5 seconds. I am going to rent it first for a month and the CareCredit approved me about 5 grand for a credit card so the girl I've been working with knocked the price down for me from 6 grand. It was supposedly 8 grand last year when Voc Rehab refused to pay for it. I find it hard to believe that the new wireless unit is actually cheaper but I cant keep waiting year after year to see if the price drops and it doesn't look like any day-time talk show hosts are going to donate it to me.

I knew my dad wasn't going to be happy when I told him my decision. He told me I didn't have the money and neither did he. He told me not to get it. Truth is we both have the money but were both on fixed income. It just really upset me the way he acted. He is the worst "caregiver". Its like my whole family was all "hallelujah Jesus gonna heal you" right after my stroke but 11 years later now they are looking stupid and have just accepted this is the way I am. I hate that. I hate that no one helps me. I find the technology. I find the doctors. I schedule the therapy. My dad never once reminded me to straighten my arm while walking or tried to find out more about some new technology he seen on the news that could help me. I hate that I have to get a credit card and buy this machine all on my own but the good part is they are giving me 18 months to pay it off 0% interest and being able to use my arm for the rest of my life is worth more than any mount of money. I've waited. I've done my research. Ive exhausted my options. so once again Im taking things into my own hand. I will let you all know when I get it and meet with the guy that is going to fit it for me and show me how to use it.

Also I know I've been talking about this thing for a while and some of you tell me to try something else and there are machines that do the same thing and are cheaper but I cannot open my hand and cannot move my wrist up and down so that makes me ineligible for a lot of the other technology and treatments. Bioness is the only thing that has worked for me and by purchasing it I can use it whenever not just 30 minutes a week as an outpatient until insurance decides to discharge me from therapy