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Enough


Ethyl17

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I am so tired of being in charge of everything - and you all know I am just venting here, but really!

 

I take the truck in for its oil change last Tuesday. In order to wait for it, I have to be there at 8am and leave Bruce alone. Leaving Bruce alone is OK for now. Saturday morning the truck will not start. We go out in the Honda to get some errands done, but Carl is coming, so don't finish everything on the list.

 

I don't mind calling RoadNTow, but just want to be sure it isn't something stupid. Carl assures us that it is nothing he can see. So I have Bruce get me up at 6am today - we still have our morning routine, call garage, call RoadNTow, truck is taken off and we go to finish errands. Banks are closed-Veterans Day. Cashier at Stop and Shop argues with me about check cashing as she does not have the amount in her drawer! Where does that come from - just go get it! Bruce is changing PCPs and I asked for four months prescriptions to allow me time to get him to new PCP and pick up scripts today - only one refill! Well, that worked.

 

Get home, we have lunch and Bruce actually says you need to lie down. Well, I really need a shower and manage to do both. Garage calls - squirrels have eaten through the fuel lines - can you believe that. I have three squirrels in the yard - we relocated 31 of them before Bruce stroked and we have two nut trees. You have to eat through my fuel lines? Who is nuts here - LOL!

 

Financial advisor at 3pm and projection is not good. So have some serious thinking there. Get to work, can't log on to the computer and no one is in the office to fix it, so another nurse logs me on. And in the meantime, my go-to calls and she has been thrown from an ATV and has been released from the ER and sister nurse has so many questions. Nothing is broken. MaryBeth is sore and will be so for several days. She has to work but is just in so much pain. Its funny that she knows the questions I will ask and has the answers. And again, I am recentered as to what is truly important and what is difficult, but can be managed. Fortunately Mary understands that she now needs to have a helmut on.

 

Bed time, early day tomorrow. But my Mary is OK and that is really all that is important.. Debbie

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Debbie, I don't have answers for your questions here. I looked after Ray for a long time but I didn't have to balance work hours as well. I think you are doing a great job but do sometimes wonder how long you are going to be able to do things at the present pace.

 

I am sorry to hear what happened to MaryBeth, she has a lot on her plate too and bruises and stiffness is going to hamper that. She has been a great support for you and I wish only good things for her.

 

Sue.

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Just when I thought I had problems! Debbie, so sorry about all your troubles. It is so frustrating when the vehicles we depend on don't work and then getting them to the garage, etc., etc. Squirrels! What a mess!

 

In areas here, there are too many deer. Some communities have authorized a legalized hunt to keep the population down. I know they can cause a lot of damage. My daughter hit one in Michigan that crossed in front of her on a 4 lane highway. I can see them in my neighbors yard now and then and they look so cute.

 

Sorry about Mary Beth and hope she is doing better by now. She must like adventure! Yes, helmuts are a must.

 

See you in chat. Take it easy.

 

Julie

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Debbie,

I have that same feeling. Why me oh Lord? Why Me. But, yes we are capable and strong. We can do it. Just take one bite at a time. Just take a deep breath.

Bruce is such a sweet heart. he really loves you. He wants to take care of you.

Sorry about Mary Beth. Glad that she wasn't hurt any more.

 

Take care of yourself and we shall talk to you tonight.

 

Ruth

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Debbie you always get it together -- and you always help others--- but a little YOU time is OK.... does this advice sound familiar ( you have given it to me enough) wonder if either one of us will listen to ourselves??? take it easy ...

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HI Debbie,

As I was Reading that I was wondering where are you finding time to just breath. WOW! I agree with Nancy you need some You time. it is ok to take some at least once a day. Wonderwoman was just a TV show you don't need to live up to that. Though you are doing a great job at it. Remember to stop take a deep breath and smell the roses sometime the rest of it really can wait.

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