Adjusting to next phase
Having a little trouble adjusting to the next phase of my life and how I will attack it. Much work to do, but it is all HERE, don't have to go to the other house.. well, there are 2 lockers... we won't go there. Today I finally decided to get back the meals on wheels. I had thought when the house was done, I'd be able to cook like before and go back to my vegetarian diet, however, the last 2 weeks I've spent most of my time in the kitchen and still manage to have so many dishes I can't keep the sink cleaned out, not the counter cleared off (add in neither the stove nor table). So, I need to spend time working on all these boxes of stuff I drug in here from the move, and doing home therapy with Bob. My preferred diet is shelved, once again. I have given it my best shot, and am thankful that I have something to fall back on, as I'm sinking trying to do all this food. Tomorrow meals start again, and it is deliciously prepared, cafeteria type food, so I'm at peace with it, and thankful to have it. Maybe if I ever get this junk cleared out, I'll have more time, and I'll try again.
The last week has brought some new things for me. I have had flashes of thoughts.. quilt fabric, crochet patterns.... Saturday I got out MY music and played it - so long since I heard Luis Miguel sing. Sunday mowed front & back yards and cleaned out one corner of the garage. I could see many yard tools piled in there (shovels, hoes, rakes). I was coming dangerously close to running over different tools with the riding mower, and rather than wait till I blew a tire, decided to go for it. I knew if I would ever be able to find what I needed, I had to take the pile out and sort them, sweep and re-arrange them so I knew what was there. I plan to go thru the garage like this .... maybe the big tool box next. I don't think like him, and the way he organized his tools, leaves me hunting and pecking constantly.
Before his stroke I was eating extremely healthy, had lost weight and felt better than ever in my life. Now I'm back up to 200 pounds and have, by no choice in the last crazy couple of months of moving, lived on fast food. But, I've been trying the last week to write my food down, like I used to, and make sure I'm eating a balanced diet - it's been hit and miss to remember to do it, though. But there is no excuse to not try to eat balanced now, just gotta commit to it. I hope to stop binging BEFORE it does me in.
Have read 6 paper bags of old newspapers and recycled, since house sold. I don't read ALL the paper, just the headers, then stop and read anything pertinent to us & obits.
My goals for tomorrow are:
Try to get more clean-up in the kitchen - too messy + moving boxes all around, this will all take awhile, & many rooms to go
Therapy with Bob at home
Try to keep track of what I'm eating - balance it and quit binging
I flunked out at walking, too muich left over pain from moving, so some easy stretches and range of movement
Look for the payoff in having another day, it's a gift