I remember about a week ago, when thought of my crafts, reading, things I used to do, began to appear in my brain again. My life has been pretty absent of anything about me, since Bob's stroke, so this was a surprise.
Bob tells me I'm singing more again.
And tonight, I told him my body was begging me for an orange, so I cut one up, and nearly swooned while we ate it. I looked at Bob and said, 'you know... I know don't why I wasted time eating those cookies, I'm enjoying this SO much more". He shook his head yes. Then it hit me, "OH MY GOD! That is a thought from the old me, that just made it to the top again! I have been wanting to get back to healthy eating, but only because I feared falling dead and leaving Bob in a nursing home. There was no me in there, only knowledge that it was the right way to eat. But tonight, I felt that first twinge of my own self, in total recognition of THIS IS WHAT IS BEST. It was a wonderful moment of seeing that glimpse of the way I used to be and think and feel. Oh my.... this could be the start of something very good!
By the way, peaches are IN right now, Ohio Walmart is having the sweet, soft pressure peaches - swoon again!