for the moment we are doing OK... I was reflecting how i used to sit with heart in mouth - would dan take his pills today? will he eat today, and most important will he drink ANYTHING today ?? will he have a seizure? will he get out of bed? now although some of these issues linger they are not a daily occurrence . i lived for so long with adrenaline flowing that i feel like a deflated balloon now..... of course since we do have issues now and then i get a healthy reminder, and i am always waiting for the other shoe to drop ( can't seem to shake THAT feeling). i bought a new mattress for our adjustable bed - i bought one for my side first liked and then the following week i bought another for dans side. hopefully it preserves my back a bit longer, and dan of course i always worry about sores or whatever. it seems to be more comfortable than the "tempurpedic" material .... went back to the "old springs" type...

for really good luck i broke a tooth-- arghhh-- stress makes me grind my teeth at night - well that paid off ( lol)... no dentists have any openings so i have to wait till friday... hopefully it can just be pulled... shoulder shrug... and i literally adrenaline out the novacane they put in so it is not a easy thing going to the dentist... i wish they would bonk me on the head and take care of business.

Happy new year everyone - i hope everyones lives improve AND we continue to enjoy life, our families and our accomplishments.. In the land of stroke - "still being here IS a accomplishment ".....