Rose, it does take as long as it takes but each individual has to face that battle alone and that is why we are here, cheering you on. I am three days away from the second anniversary of Ray's death, 13 years as a caregiver, two years as a widow.  I too am here for the support as well as to support others.

(((hugs))) from Sue.

thanks Sue those words are very true-its just such a slog I keep wanting the "old me" back!

I was glad to get to my one year mark, things seem easier I guess I am just getting used to doing things differently and slower. I am in my second year and I am still fighting with fatigue I just try and keep pushing. I am impressed with your swimming and exercising. Kristen

Hi Kristen I do feel it will be different at least in my own mind after the one year anniversary- the fatigue thing is random, sometimes I feel I'm gaining energy then something will come along to sap it and I feel dreadful then. This falls under the category of things they don't tell you I think - I had a cold last week and it seemed to bring the fatigue back on - all I can do is pace myself more steadily and wait for some energy to return but it feels like there's a hole in my bucket! My doctor last year encouraged me to exercise and I've been building up ever since -my next goal is to add circuit training to my regular classes but I've moderated that goal to after christmas to make sure I'm ready to go up a gear -- the exercise is to control my weight and improve cardio vascular health I've been quite focused - although swimming Also tones the body . Thanks anyway I'm very encouraged right now by others ahead of me on their journey - keep on keeping on Kristen xx

Hi Rose,  so it will be a year anniversary, on mine I was like " I done a year, and I am still  kicking and licking".   Great that you are exercising, I was not till my third year!   Keep it up, thinking postive.  With the no energy, have you had your blood checked for lack of iron. I was  told i had such low iron, that in the hosptial I went.   My diet is much better, and now the more I exercise the more energy I have.

Keep  posting, it is a journey with lots of twist and turns.

Yvonne

Hi Yvonne I take an iron tonic- from memory you're in the USA so you probably think the nhs here are helpful. It's easier to get a bottle of flora dix than it is to persuade a gp to run tests believe me. ! Thanks for your lovely comments though x