Pam :

I can so identify with what you are saying, but just hold on when you feel like you re drowning in self pity. believe me best is yet to come & god has something better store in for you. you survived for a reason & not as a punishment. & I promise you will see it too when you come out of this dark tunnel of why me. just remember to stay in present & take jut one day at a time. don't look far in future it will create anxiety don't look behind it will create depression, just stay in present. hope & pray for better days to come soon.

Asha

hi pam,

acceptance and peace, or the rage within us best said in my favorite poem,"do not go gentle into that good nite".

two distinct ways of trying to cope with the more difficult problems that life gives us. I am in the second mode.  it seems to embody a type of acceptance with an absolute fury.

you are very good for me pam in that you are telling me what life on the other side of pain is and so  when I get there it will be with the inspiration that you have given to me.

david

Hey sassy, your words cut to the soul. We all mourn our losses and hang on to hope. Some days I feel trapped in the forge in body and mind, yet we must push on. Dreams are shattered replaced by what? I lost that life and many things, you asked who you can cry with, mourn your losses, we are here for you, I'm sending you a cosmic hug, feel my arms around you assuring you life does matter we just need to redefine ourselves and find a new purpose

I feel the pain of your loss.

I hope you find hope and a purpose. We all long for that.

Be strong, I know you are you've made it this far.

Peace, love, joy to you, you are in my prayers,

Jay

Thank you for being there,sharing this soul pain with me,reminding me I am not alone. Making sure I am heard and not alone. Yes we all are suffering,trying to find our way,fighting our way through. Sometimes I do not know how to do this,but you remind me...those who have,those who are doing.

I have failed to keep my life as it was. It hits me now that it is real.gone. oh the plans of mice and men. I need to find my way through this anguish and that is by continuing to seek ways to improve.

All of you have been through this time crossing the desert,I know.

Thanks Jay,I appreciate your honesty and hugs. And prayers. You are in my prayers too as are all on here.

David,your encouragement renews and reminds me who I am. Yes,fury is a light in the window. Who is gently going anywhere? Thanks for saying that is ok. I constantly tantrum you know.

Asha,your gift to me is the saying the best is yet to come. I keep saying it as I have experienced horrible things, and I know every thing is a transition even though I admit I thought the good times would roll longer.

It is exhausting sometimes to be positive and not authentic either. This is where hope and anguish coexist.