Kelli, being a widow I suffer from bouts of thinking about what might have been.  Of course I live in the same house, sleep in the same room, wake up to the same view out of the window.  Tomorrow will be three years since Ray passed but it could be just a few months as far as my brain is concerned. It is hard on your own to do comparisons as there is no-one to tell you if you are right or wrong.  I do understand your dilemma as you are going into your old house, looking after your son, nothing much is difference except that it is an illusion, it is no longer yours.  Just as married life is no longer mine.  (((hugs)))

SUE ..That was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. Thank you so much. Xxxxxxxxx

Nothing wrong with venting. Sometimes it's good for the soul. And I reckon we stroke survivors deserve the occasional vent!!!!