There are many cna helpers full of kindness and who do things for me that make my days easier,more pleasant. Like the night shift ones who bring me a snack or orange juice while I sleep so when I wake, then I have it. And the one who adds ice to my water pitcher I use to make iced tea in,and never throws it out. And the ones who bring me hot tea without asking in the morning,bring me gowns,extra towels,and lets me hoard tooth brushes. I appreciate the ones who come and chat with me about their lives.

However their are the ones who duck out when I ask for some ice,or a ride in the wheelchair down an incline...the ramp to the parking lot where my transportation van waits when the driver comes to fetch me. Ok one cna in particular: I have asked him to take me when he is standing around the nurses station,which is where I often find someone to take me outside when my driver arrives.But this cna will say,"who is your cna?" And he walks away.disappears. I am left to ask another,or track down my cna. Others take me such as therapists,or another cna not mine will do it for me.

So then one day,this cna just happened to be my cna for the first time. And it just so happened that I had an appointment that day and he could not dodge giving me a wheelchair ride to the van. So he did it. But hours later when the driver returned me to the parking lot,he was standing out there eating and I told the cna,"there is my cna." The driver opened the door and told him I was back. My cna failed to look over at me in the van, and I heard him say he was on a lunch break. The driver then told me he was on a lunch break and I had to go inside and ask for someone to come and get me. A nice one did and the kind driver pushed my walker back to my room. I never saw my cna again for the remainder of his shift for some reason because when I hit the call button someone else assisted me. Anyway the whole thing seems weird to me.* But later that night a kind cna brought me some supplies and took good care of me. I talked to roomie about it and she said he is not friendly to her. We decided he runs from work. But it hurts our feelings.I know he was on break,but he was right next to the van and never acknowledged me. I suppose if I am not liked,then I would be better off cared for by a different cna. In the future,I will not accept him assigned to me and call a supervisor,or I may make arrangements so he is not assigned to me. Or maybe I will cool off and let it go,give him another chance or just know what I deal with and suffer in silence. But it was awful having him. He never was available to me when I asked him for anything. Roomie said he was not nice.

I am sick of feeling helpless.At the mercy of. I know others see the bad attitude ones and see the hurt they bring.

Including the doc here that does not want to be bothered by calls. He comes in saying he did not get them. Well the service passes on messages for everyone in the medical group. Do the rest of them not get them?

I had sore throat a long time. Sore tongue with bumps. Nurse said canker sores. Av LVN knowitall. I waited days. They said the doc was here but he did not stop by here. Luckily the Good Lord watches over lil ole me. I had a dermatologist appt on Friday. She said I had Oral Thrush. Now I have a complete set of fungal problems,scalp,nails,and now tongue. Anyway I got nystatin and lidocain to relieve my pain and heal me. The doc here had to order her orders so now he knows I had a problem. One he does not need to deal with now.

My other roomie is in hospital getting her teeth problem taken care of this place suggested letting her die. The family was agahst.

Oh an awful singer has come to sing to a hostage audience of dementia patients. I hear it in my room. Time for earbuds.

I feel wonderful after using hair conditioner I was given as a gift. Aromatherapy,cleanliness,and good hair days soothe the soul. I am allowed 2 showers per week. Since I have appointments, I have learned how to wash my hair and bathe in the bathroom sink. It gets the floor wet because the sink drains slow and backs up.