A new friend from bingo came by to visit me in my room. She said she knew something was wrong. I asked her if she had heard what had happened to me. She said yes,sh heard that our mutual friend had driven me to tears. I said of course not!And my friend said she knew that did not sound right. I told her my story and she said that is ridiculous and that I will feel better after reporting it.

She chatted about the receptionist from front desk --called bingo and made a mess of it. We shared a laugh over who calls the best bingo. I expressed my gratitude for her friendship. She never eats in dining room because she watches tv shows while she eats. She recommended a manicure in the morning and said she missed me at pampering hour and bingo. It made me feel less invisible,cheerful,belonging.

Then later Bossynurse tested my blood sugar and it was pretty low enough to need a snack.

She gave me a molasses gingerbread raisin crisp. I accepted and she seemed pleased. I commented it was delicious and she told me it was from my favorite bakery in our local mountains. I said I appreciated her sharing her special snack.

Then she gave me my skin solution she promptly reordered. I feel things have changed so much. A kindness and understanding has bloomed. I shared the story and cried. She told me that in the beginning she did not understand things,but that she did now. She held my face and said I was going to be ok.

I think about how she always was on top of things but I disliked her bossy manner. Now she has toned it down. Now I resist less. We have witnessed the power of kindness.

Roomie said she appreciated me and not having a dementia roommate. She asks to be changed more since I spoke up about that. When ombudsman came today,for once Roomie spoke up. I was surprised at the power kindness has over my feelings,my worldview, my outlook on past present future.

And experiencing kindness makes me feel more kindly. I underestimate this power. And then as I basked in the warmth, I thought now this is what it should be here all of the time. I Wish I felt safe and kindness here all along. I wish I had this wonderful feeling all of the time. But there are obstacles.