I saw my neurologist this week. I'm not sure how it went, actually although I really luv my doctor I just didn't feel the connection as usual. Maybe it's "me". I've been struggling with depression and my thinking is confused. She will be attending the arbitration set up on August 19th for resolution with my employer who tried to impose going back to work when I was still not well enough. Now she's going have to medically justify this. I am so thankful that she has agreed to do this but at the same time I am humiliated to put her through this. I am sure she has better things to do!

My mom had emergency surgery for colon cancer. It was very localized but recovery will be long because she was so weak and had lost too much weight. They had to do a trach to feed her and I'm hoping her spirit will pick up a little once the vitamins and nourishment strengthen her weakened body. My step father does not think she will pull through, and my sister has a few doubts. I tend to be a little more positive and at the same time I will accept God's will. I don't want to see her suffer. It is a really rough journey for her but also for us who love her dearly and are witnesses. I hope her quality of life improves.

That'S it for now.