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I'm fed up


ksmith

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So.. i have been coming to my ex husband's house helping out with our son. I love spending time with my son BUT enough is enough.

 

Time is blending together. I know I have to leave because WE ARE DIVORCED. I loved helping him but I can't even tell you what year we divorced for I'm always here and it's blending together. It's like we're still married. But last night just [pushed me over the edge. I say to my ex: " your girlfriend has offered to help out in the mornings with our son' and his response floored me.. ( granted she has Transverse myelitis which causes her at times to have pain and difficulty moving) he said : ' She has days which she can't get out of bed' to which i I gave him a WTF look... really?'Oh but on your 'bad' day you're still better than she is' I'm sorry have we met? Have I not been dealing with dizziness and nausea and all for the past 7 years.I'm beginning to have negative feelings for my ex. I can't handle negative feelings.

 

Our son is very responsible. He has a phone and a key. After school he can walk home ( less than the 25 yds) and lock the doors and be alone for 25 minutes till his dad comes home. The problem is his dad is a 'What if' person. Going through cognitive therapy i've learned not to think that way...

 

"Well you being up here is saving you on bills " THAT'S NOT THE POINT. wow electric bill down 10 dollars..

I just want to scream. My fear is he is due to get laid off very soon ( normal part of Union life IBEW) and there is a chance he could be transferred to a new job. I made it clear this job....after THIS job I'm cutting back to three days a week then off for good. I told him i don't want to even offer is all else fails for he won't even ask anyone.

He states he doesn't like to rely on people.. *ahem* I can't eat the foods I want for I can store them all here and I'm not going to . I'm stressed and no working out for I'm exhausted. I'm gaining weight again and just fed up!!

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Stay strong on this one Kelli, the rest of your life is for you and you decide what you do. He can work it out for himself.  It must be very difficult for you and the stress is not good for you. So smile and say :"It is not going to happen that way honey."

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Most important is son right? And you worked out he is good to go with age appropriate responsibility.

 

What are you still doing there? Why do you feel guilty? It makes no sense! Get out. Escape. Free yourself to be yourself.

 

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Stay strong on this one Kelli, the rest of your life is for you and you decide what you do. He can work it out for himself.  It must be very difficult for you and the stress is not good for you. So smile and say :"It is not going to happen that way honey."

you always know what to say to make all the sense.. thank you my inner conscious    

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