So.. i have been coming to my ex husband's house helping out with our son. I love spending time with my son BUT enough is enough.

Time is blending together. I know I have to leave because WE ARE DIVORCED. I loved helping him but I can't even tell you what year we divorced for I'm always here and it's blending together. It's like we're still married. But last night just [pushed me over the edge. I say to my ex: " your girlfriend has offered to help out in the mornings with our son' and his response floored me.. ( granted she has Transverse myelitis which causes her at times to have pain and difficulty moving) he said : ' She has days which she can't get out of bed' to which i I gave him a WTF look... really?'Oh but on your 'bad' day you're still better than she is' I'm sorry have we met? Have I not been dealing with dizziness and nausea and all for the past 7 years.I'm beginning to have negative feelings for my ex. I can't handle negative feelings.

Our son is very responsible. He has a phone and a key. After school he can walk home ( less than the 25 yds) and lock the doors and be alone for 25 minutes till his dad comes home. The problem is his dad is a 'What if' person. Going through cognitive therapy i've learned not to think that way...

"Well you being up here is saving you on bills " THAT'S NOT THE POINT. wow electric bill down 10 dollars..

I just want to scream. My fear is he is due to get laid off very soon ( normal part of Union life IBEW) and there is a chance he could be transferred to a new job. I made it clear this job....after THIS job I'm cutting back to three days a week then off for good. I told him i don't want to even offer is all else fails for he won't even ask anyone.

He states he doesn't like to rely on people.. *ahem* I can't eat the foods I want for I can store them all here and I'm not going to . I'm stressed and no working out for I'm exhausted. I'm gaining weight again and just fed up!!