I went to urgent care and thought I would pop in and out but the next thing I knew it the doctor was poking and prodding and ogling and then demanding that I go over to the emergency room for more of the same. So way I went to the inconvenience of everyone around me. And my last words were please don't let them let me suffer. So even though this hospital has all my medication names and they make me check it over and over at each visit when I came here they could not get one of my medications. And nothing was on time. Then the nurse who it disappeared for a while came back and told me she apologized that she had had to help and the emergency patient. She said that everyone was tied up with that and no one could see to my pain so I laid for two hours crying and when the nurse came back with the medication and was going in and out of the room the next thing you know she said why are you still crying does it still hurt. I already know that few staff know about central pain problems but the callous joking laughing not taking it seriously it this pain held up getting some other tests done and so they came back in saying what we won't do it if you don't want us to and I never refused anything but I just beg to have my regular pain medication and it seemed like they wanted it just on their schedule and it was it was heartbreaking to be in a hospital where are you trust people and you've come for help and you know your your pain is an inconvenience to them you know it's just I literally was putting my hands up covering my eyes my head just telling them please please go away and wait until my pain medicine I have dizziness and the room was spinning the people come in I don't see their faces the lights are bright I'm hurting and they're saying things to me that I can't understand and they're wanting me to answer thing and when I said I don't know the doctor would be like you have to know these things you can do this and how could I I don't know and I won't know my mind is a confusion and okay then then I was crying somehow and the next thing I know I'm having a heated discussion telling the doctor no I didn't refuse anything and very upset at the nurse and then I realize I can't see their eyes where's my glasses I can't see them I'm talking to them and I can't even see him and so then the next thing you know that the nurse was looking for it looked all over and we couldn't figure out where my glasses went and then he had fallen on the floor and we're underneath the IV stand and she hadn't moved out in her search and so that's where the glasses were and I hadn't even thought about them being underneath it but anyway just more confusion you know like make sure your patients have their glasses on and make sure your patients have their I'm laying here shivering because the blankets I had are on the floor somewhere you know it's just I can't even explain no it ain't nobody really keeps an eye on you I don't know I guess I'm in a good place in case something's about to happen but I'm worried too because I haven't felt like myself and so I'm glad to have people that can help me but boy still in their own hospital where I get to you know I get these it's finals here here at this Hospital and they don't seem to even you know that comprehend just the staff I just can't leave that the staff doesn't know enough not taking it seriously it this pain at held up getting some other test done and so they came back in saying what we won't do it if you don't want us to and I never refused anything but I just baked to have my regular pain medication and it seemed like they wanted it just on their schedule and it was it was heartbreaking to be in a hospital were are you trust people and you come for help and you know your you're pain is in inconvenience to them your you know it's just I literally was putting my hands up covering my eyes my head just telling them please please go away and wait until my pain medicine I have dizziness and the room was spinning the people come in I don't see their faces the lights are bright I'm hurting and they are saying things to me that I can't understand and there wanting me to answer things and when I said I don't know the doctor would be like you have to know these things you can do this and how could I I don't know and I won't know my mind is the confusion and okay then then I was crying somehow and the next thing I know I'm having a heated disc discussion telling the doctor know I didn't refuse anything and very upset at the nurse and then I realize I can't see their eyes where's my glasses I can't see them I'm talking to them and I can't even see him and so then the next thing you know the the nurse was looking for it looked all over a week couldn't figure out where my glasses went and then your dad fall in on the floor and we're underneath the IV stand and she hadn't move that in her search and so that's where the glasses were and I hadn't even thought about them being underneath it but anyway just more confusion you know like make sure your patience have their glasses on and make sure your patience have their I'm laying here shivering because the blankets I had a run the floor somewhere you know its just I can't even explain know date nobody really keeps in I on you I don't know I guess I'm in it good place in case something is about a thing but I am worried too because I haven't felt like myself and so I'm glad to have people that can help me but boy I still in there own hospital where I get to he know I get these this finals here here it this hospital and they don't seem to even you know it comprehend just the staff night just can't believe that this staff doesn't know enough hand I've it I'm very intolerant of their pathetic ignorance. Right now whatever was hurting fails behind the central nerve pain that I suffer with and it makes me see how miraculous my drug doses are in my life. And I was telling the nurse there's a reason I take all of this medication and the nurse kept saying I'm not judging I'm not judging. That's the problem. Everyone seems so afraid of these opiates and so maybe for the abusing non stroke Folk they might be a danger but I do not have a life without them I'm fact I don't even have a day without them. So now I've passed from Doctor to doctor told my pain story a thousand times today and I'm completely exhausted and I still have not received whatever relief I thought I was going to get today so maybe tomorrow with a whole bunch of people come at me again maybe I will have the pain relief to endure it.