I need an echocardiogram, pelvic MRI, RFA Spinal, brain MRI again and I am feeling scared and overwhelmed. I will do it but I feel invaded. Alone. But my best friend lives states away and is my lifeline on my phone.
We grew up together since kindergarten. We know our histories. She is my sister. It helps to have her inspire me when I get down
so many here are cruel. she wants me to live with her but she is the country mouse so we worry that I would miss my big teaching hospital care. so.....
Pain team suggests spinal implant stimulation. I need a screening process first. I am scared but I hurt still on the meds. I wish I was normal.
I do not blog because I am busy coloring. My hobby consumes me. I sleep all the time too. But I love you guys and hope this new year brings all the best for you.
I am self absorbed now sometimes but I appreciate my best friend and my Son who love me back to life. I live on the border of life now so I am in a different place. I am useless but try and love those around me now here in this institution of suffering and healing. I am grateful to see 2018 but it is a foreign place I was not prepared to land in. I will do my best to do all I am required with help of grace.
Best hugs to all.