William passed yesterday 9-18-18 at 1:06PM. William had been in hospice for 1 month. This has been the longest month of my life. I am so relieved that the vigil is finally over. Here it is 2:40AM and I am up. I am so used to getting up and checking on William.
I want to thank all of you for being there for me.
I want to share that the stroke board has been a lifesaver for me since William's stroke 10 years ago.
I would suggest that anyone who needs hospice utilize it. I thought that I was getting hospice in place early and I used it only for a month. They provide a wonderful service. They enabled me to keep William at home and let him die peacefully at home. When I needed more help they gave me more help. I started with help 3 times a week and ended up with help twice a day , every day.
This month has been a vigil that I am glad is over. When William stopped eating and drinking, it became a matter of time.
I have wonderful friends who live around me and were able to support me through this time. I was able to call upon them to be with me when I was afraid to be by myself. I do encourage you to reach out for help when you need to. Do not make yourself travel the journey by yourself.
I know that many caregivers have traveled this long road with me. What amazes me is the accolades that I get from everybody about the way that I cared for William. I am called a Saint, an amazing person.....but I know so many from here that have done the same. So many of us have devoted our lives to our loved ones.
William's death brought closure to his estranged children. They were able to see him in his last days. Miracle of miracles who was coherent and able to speak with them. He was able to see his ex-wife. Life is amazing.
Now onto the next chapter in my life. What is going to happen?
I went out to dinner with 3 of my friends last night. It was so good to get out of the house. Friends are wonderful. I will be having lunch with another bunch of friends today. My old YMCA bunch. I have my trips to California to look forward to in November. The quilt festival in November.
I just got off the phone with William's cousin. It was nice to reminisce.
I just want to thank everyone for their support. This board has been a Godsend to me. Thank you.