I have been away on vacation for the past 2 days for a Kelly Clarkson concert. It was amazing and meeting her after the show was as well, she is such a sweet person and it was definitely an uplifting moment that I was in need of.

I guess being away for 2 days made me forget about all I had back home. There were moments that I would think of it, of course, but for the most part I just let go and enjoyed being 19 for a change. Shopping with my friend was tons of fun, I ate some great food, and mainly I just enjoyed the moments where we'd laugh about absolutely nothing...I forget how often that just doesn't happen in my life.

I returned home today and went straight to the hospital to see Daddy. He is already up on the Rehabilitation floor and seems to be doing better although he has a ways to go and I am not certain he'll ever be back to where he was before the stroke a week ago. Any progress is a blessing though and I never forget to thank God for the blessings he gives me in the form of my Dad's progress. It'll take a while, but I know he'll get there.

Sometimes I just want to be carefree and I know that I can't do that. My Mom also babysits on the side to make extra money and has for the past 11 years. After this happened with my Dad she had to take a vacation and she has already lost 2 of the kids she babysits. 1 because her Mom couldn't find anyone else to be a backup and another because she feels my Nana is too old to babysit, and it's certainly not that I blame them because it IS their children and I can understand them wanting to do what they feel is best...but this did come at a very bad time. I have faith all will be ok though. I will be babysitting alot in the coming weeks and although I don't really enjoy it...I know it's a sacrifice that I have to make.

2 days just wasn't a long enough vacation from life....